Inside I'm screaming 'I love you'

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

The fifth day, i'm still crying.

i feel so painful. i regretted asking things that i wasn't supposed to know. i regretted big time. every new day is a nightmare to me. :( i want people to hear me out, hear what i wanna say. i realised, no one understands. no one will. ~~why did you give me so much hope when it was just a crush?!!~~

I'm making sacrifices, can't you see?

oh yes, good news! God finally answered my prayers. She's happier now. :D I'm glad to hear that though. well, when she's happier, i know what i will get. shall take it like retribution. since i've asked of it from God, i'll take it all away from her and let me be ~~the unhappy one~~ always, as long as she's happy.

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Chorus
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Chorus

Ooh, And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Chorus x2

The one thing that I tried to hold on to....
The one thing that I tried to hold on to....
The one thing that I tried to hold on to....

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

; now, all i have to do is just putting on the strong front.

; stick with you